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trust
You can think through something a million times in your mind from every angle possible, recounting every second, grasping for what you missed, what you lost, what you can’t figure out and still not understand it. It’s almost wasted emotion, isn’t it? The adrenaline rush, the familiar wave of emotions crashing into you every time, until your body can’t take it anymore is almost too much. Physically you find yourself down on the floor, face first, writhing in emotional agony and still unable to stop, manipulate, or reverse the actions.
Trust is a funny thing in that way. Not the kind of funny that puts everyone in a good mood, but the kind of funny that isn’t really funny at all. Trust is just another one of those emotions that we can’t understand. We think we’re basing it on something with substance, something real, but it’s nothing more than a feeling, containing absolutely no more concrete substance than air and maintaining the ability to vanish just as quickly.
